New Tree for Me!

December 28, 2008

We made it home from Shreveport earlier today, and when we got home we both took a long nap! lol It's been such a long few weeks with get-togethers and last minute preparations, etc. It was so fun decorating so much this year. With the TSO show being our last "Christmas Event" for this year, I was almost sad to see it go. I think I had been leaning heavily on my Christmas decorating and planning to keep my mind off not being able to get pregnant yet. We had such a good time at Christmas, and Ryan was such a wonderful husband helping me with everything. I enjoyed the nights with mom and Tiffani helping me with trees and dollhouses. We are going on a cruise in a couple of weeks, to Mexico. I think that will probably help a lot with the fertility frustrations...

Today when we were in Shreveport, we went to Target so I could pick up a Champagne colored tree I had found there last week and passed up- For my new teal and copper theme I want to do in Christmas 2009. While we were there I saw some really cute Valentines decorations. I've never decorated for Valentines Day but it was so cute. It made me go back to that episode of Jon and Kate Plus 8 that we saw where Jon and Kate had made heart shaped pancakes for their kids breakfast on Valentines Day etc... I just can't wait until we have our own children and celebrate holiday's with our kids. I know Ryan will make such a wonderful father, and I hope to be a good mother one day. My parents have been the best example that parents could be I think. Sometimes the chance to have children seems so far away for us. I just hope our kids understand one day how much we went thru to get them here, and how much we loved them, before they were ever brought into existence. It sounds crazy to some I'm sure- but I already love them with all of my heart and would do anything to protect them and keep them from harm's way.

Somehow when I sat down to write about my new tree it turned into a baby post... I would apologize about that, but, that's part of our lives right now, and I'm okay with that. Sometimes it just feels good to write what your feeling. We talk about it at home all the time, but writing the frustrations does something different. Not sure what. Maybe its a mental cop-out.. dunno. But hey, it works. :)

More to come...

*Heth*